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locked replies make up this intro thread bc locked pins are fucky if i recall correctly.

this and my lack of data and the phone not tracking me walking makes me like there is no point to continuing.

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we started playing pgo and are now getting mandatory to progression quests like "throw 3 nice curveballs IN A ROW" WHICH IS IMPOSSIBLE FOR US??

the only times we have done nice/great curveballs have been ENTIRELY ACCIDENTALLY but you know fuck anyone with motor issues

I've known pgo is shit about disabled ppl but I thought maybe that had been FIXED between the explicit fixes and the accidental ones to account for covid but nah

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also guess who discovered Another NEW Random Allergy!!! this time it's mustard!

gonna try to get a referral to an allergist, likelihood of mast cell activation disorder pretty good considering i have eds3.

tried vrchat again, less overwhelmingly confusing this time, still crashes/doesn't load shit well.

got called a "t**p bitch" by someone i couldnt see long enough to block/mute them and then my internet dropped.

i never DID finish ds9 bc the terran episode was just. way too goddamn much but maybe i will give it a second try nearly 10 years later and actually medicated for anxiety lol

things ive already watched: venom, deadpool, into the spiderverse, space sweepers.

series: star trek: discovery (in prog), dorohedoro, samurai champloo (in prog), bonding, sexual education, daredevil, netflixs lupin, umbrella academy, blood of zeus, titans, the witcher, devilman crybaby. probably other shit i forgot.

i'm currently crepuscular and trying to slowly switch back to diurnal and watching shit on my tablet is whats keeping me from falling asleep too early/going too bored. series/movies equally good.

genres i'm not a big fan of are: reality shows, certain hard scifi/zombie/apocalypse (like really depressing dystopian shit like the rain/etc), ya tv like riverdale, and hard nopes at anything with depicted rape or sexual assault.

doesn't need to be in english.

migraine mostly gone after taking my emergency diclofenac + metaclopramide + doxylamine bc i suspect this is allergy related, just some photosensitivity but gdi is it annoying.

after like, three months i finally have a psych appointment with the severe mental health outpatient clinic in april, and hopefully they're not bastards and change ALL my meds at once or i will die

🌊 🌞 (ze/hir) & 🗣️ (he/any)

kippy keeping me company while i stay up to fix my sleep schedule

did four sketches of me trying to figure out horn + fins stuff and feeling much better about these attempts compared to last time i tried. then threw in some sketches of my brother bc it was his bday the other day and i didnt draw him nothing bc im bad

this is the first time ive drawn him as a sad bear instead of a sad twink

fucked up that i haven't drawn a picture of me that feels right in uhhhhhhhhhh (checks how old this avatar is) 6 years?

it's just really hard to draw having curly ram horns AND big spiny fins on the side of your head without it looking like it's noclipping

🌊 🌞 (ze/hir)

also the cat licked my hand when i was trying to type after meeping at me several times. kippy pls

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watching a video about thalassophobia and being like "nope cant relate, thats my home thank u"

pls give me the ability to breathe water and shit, i gotta go be with my deep sea brethren

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tried vrchat, learned more or less that a. it's not for me if you can't customize your avatar EVEN A LITTLE BIT without paying, b. there's no graphics settings so my crap ass computer just ate shit after one too many attempts to wander a free-avatar zone.

in short, the experience i'm looking for is still, and probably will always be, janky ass secondlife lmao

i miss messing with prims in sandbox worlds

locked replies make up this intro thread bc locked pins are fucky if i recall correctly.

im struggling with my pain/fatigue levels being worse than ever and knowing both my eds3 and brainfog/cognitive issues will only ever degrade as im getting older.

this year i literally spent all of december in bed after dislocating my right hip, and other bad dislocations of my ribs.

wondering if fedi has an active tag for disability/chronic illness like twitter's #NEISvoid? ive never searched tags much and just stayed in my tiny corner of like 3 ppl but lost track of all the ppl i was following.

ordering a gelato and milkshake and forgetting you're lactose intolerant 🙃

thinking back to college when i decided to learn blender for sl during the same week as my finals and justify it by using blender for my graphic design final and wondering how the fuck i ever managed that

i p much forgot everything i knew about blender once i cycled out of mania

- 🔭 (they)