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ph/mh -, porn mention 

playing other video games or like starting new things feels like an Insurmountable Effort lately, and we haven't drawn in months, or at least not anything we liked very much. like drew some porn sketches, hated all of them. drew a study of francis bacon bc we were like it's been 5 years since we've drawn a real human, liked it but god did we struggle and we have this thing about not posting unfinished sketches/practices.

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what we do instead of social interaction:
read an ungodly amount of tma fic
play cozy grove for an hour
???????
sleep

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we spend so much of our time just fucking exhausted lately and too tired for social interaction but at the same time i think the lack of it is doing us in mentally?? i don't know how to balance these things honestly.

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pokemon go, ableism 

this and my lack of data and the phone not tracking me walking makes me like there is no point to continuing.

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pokemon go, ableism 

we started playing pgo and are now getting mandatory to progression quests like "throw 3 nice curveballs IN A ROW" WHICH IS IMPOSSIBLE FOR US??

the only times we have done nice/great curveballs have been ENTIRELY ACCIDENTALLY but you know fuck anyone with motor issues

I've known pgo is shit about disabled ppl but I thought maybe that had been FIXED between the explicit fixes and the accidental ones to account for covid but nah

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also guess who discovered Another NEW Random Allergy!!! this time it's mustard!

gonna try to get a referral to an allergist, likelihood of mast cell activation disorder pretty good considering i have eds3.

vrchat, transphobia/slurs 

tried vrchat again, less overwhelmingly confusing this time, still crashes/doesn't load shit well.

got called a "t**p bitch" by someone i couldnt see long enough to block/mute them and then my internet dropped.

ds9 

i never DID finish ds9 bc the terran episode was just. way too goddamn much but maybe i will give it a second try nearly 10 years later and actually medicated for anxiety lol

lf netflix uk/iplayer recs 

things ive already watched: venom, deadpool, into the spiderverse, space sweepers.

series: star trek: discovery (in prog), dorohedoro, samurai champloo (in prog), bonding, sexual education, daredevil, netflixs lupin, umbrella academy, blood of zeus, titans, the witcher, devilman crybaby. probably other shit i forgot.

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lf netflix uk/iplayer recs, rape mention 

i'm currently crepuscular and trying to slowly switch back to diurnal and watching shit on my tablet is whats keeping me from falling asleep too early/going too bored. series/movies equally good.

genres i'm not a big fan of are: reality shows, certain hard scifi/zombie/apocalypse (like really depressing dystopian shit like the rain/etc), ya tv like riverdale, and hard nopes at anything with depicted rape or sexual assault.

doesn't need to be in english.

ph -/+, meds 

migraine mostly gone after taking my emergency diclofenac + metaclopramide + doxylamine bc i suspect this is allergy related, just some photosensitivity but gdi is it annoying.

psychiatry, flippant death mention 

after like, three months i finally have a psych appointment with the severe mental health outpatient clinic in april, and hopefully they're not bastards and change ALL my meds at once or i will die

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kippy keeping me company while i stay up to fix my sleep schedule

multiple eyes, drawn ec 

did four sketches of me trying to figure out horn + fins stuff and feeling much better about these attempts compared to last time i tried. then threw in some sketches of my brother bc it was his bday the other day and i didnt draw him nothing bc im bad

this is the first time ive drawn him as a sad bear instead of a sad twink

nonhumanity feels 

fucked up that i haven't drawn a picture of me that feels right in uhhhhhhhhhh (checks how old this avatar is) 6 years?

it's just really hard to draw having curly ram horns AND big spiny fins on the side of your head without it looking like it's noclipping

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also the cat licked my hand when i was trying to type after meeping at me several times. kippy pls

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nonhumanity feels 

watching a video about thalassophobia and being like "nope cant relate, thats my home thank u"

pls give me the ability to breathe water and shit, i gotta go be with my deep sea brethren

🌊 🌞 (ze/hir)

vrchat (-), sl 

tried vrchat, learned more or less that a. it's not for me if you can't customize your avatar EVEN A LITTLE BIT without paying, b. there's no graphics settings so my crap ass computer just ate shit after one too many attempts to wander a free-avatar zone.

in short, the experience i'm looking for is still, and probably will always be, janky ass secondlife lmao

i miss messing with prims in sandbox worlds

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ph/mh --- 

im struggling with my pain/fatigue levels being worse than ever and knowing both my eds3 and brainfog/cognitive issues will only ever degrade as im getting older.

this year i literally spent all of december in bed after dislocating my right hip, and other bad dislocations of my ribs.

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