Hello all! My name is Electrum and I am a shark cow (makow is the term I've started using) trans girl. I'm somewhere around demisexual I think. She / Her pronouns please <3
New to mastodon, but I'm already loving pretty much everything about it!
I get lots of commissions, I'm pretty gay, and sometimes I can be pretty sad (but with the ability to CW those posts, I won't feel as bad about it)
This'll be my personal account, so it'll be random posts.
mh (-), self harm
I've never really have done any self harm besides biting my lip a ton
But a knife kinda feels like it would be nice
I don't think I'll do anything, because it's definitely not a good idea
All I'm saying is that losing sight in my right eye sounds like exactly the irrevocable and foolish mistake I want to make right now
I promise I won't though
mh (-), suicide mention
It's less that I want to die and more that I just don't feel like I have the capacity to keep living right now
I'm exhausted and burnt out, and I'm probably on thin ice at work (having taken two sick days in two weeks, and a work from home day)
But all I really want to do is lay here until everything stops hurting
nsfw, stream line, KorpsCon
Discount for Korps content!
"Sometimes you don't want to take out your whole Dab Apparatus"
~ @Electrum on the benefits of the ""Pocket Dab""
mh, pol (-)
The continuous feeling that time is running out is really taxing. With all the political and environmental stuff happening I constantly feel like I won't live to be that old. But this leaves me feeling scared and depressed, because I don't feel like I have time to figure my life out and finally honestly be happy... And I'm 23. 23! And I'm scared I there's not much time left.
Like even now, I can't stop worrying that some of my closest friends don't actually like me. And I know it isn't true, but my brain WONT STOP LATCHING ON TO THE TINIEST THINGS.
Feeling like, after every time we hang out, I make their day worse. Like they would have been better off if I hadn't been there