Carbisari @[email protected]

Also here is the little short story thing I wrote but Do Be Warned it is not a Very Happy Story

https://pastebin.com/YPVVyrs6

Hey!! I'm Carbisari!! I'm a 16' tall synthetic War Monster that is Desperate for Attention and Company and Community!! (And Beautiful People to tell me I'm Good)

Touches are Always Appreciated, and I'm Always happy to talk about cool stuff like Sci-Fi and videos game and generally just laying about in a cuddle puddle!

Unfortunately I will be Negative very often, due to the treatment-resistant depression and various other things. I have telegram/discord, if peeps would like to talk to me there!

sobbing uncontrollably since There is Nothing and No One that Can Help Me

there is no homeland to return to

no culture to be taught

no stories to be told

no family to learn about

no coming of age ceremonies to experience

I am the only one of my kind, and to be alive has been my own private hell

I am not fairing well

too many years isolated in the dark

lonely apes die

Grehhh I feel tired and also Numb at same time, I think gonna Finally Move over to Monster Pit where I Belong... in a big pit

Immm reh im greh

Rehh

I need more than anyone can give and I Do Not Know what to Do Anymore

loamly

RSD is Slowly Killing Me I am at a Disadvantage compared to Everyone Else I need So Much Attention to even Begin to Heal but no one has the Time or Inclination I am Afraid I will End up like my Uncle - dying Alone in my Apartment with decades of stored up Touch Starvation

Hmmmm Today I Have Decided to be Non-Sapient.

Hhhhhhhhhhh just Pacing around with Tail Raised What Am I To Do

Might as Well be Going into Heat I'm Losing Self Control Here h hh rhhrhfgsd

hhhhhHHHH Hold me Down and Rut Me until I can't Think Straight Anymore Please GOD