A ghost who lives in your house but all they do is rearrange your fridge magnets to spell out self care and helpful messages
The night you eventually try it on, you only manage to look in the mirror for maybe 30 seconds before sobbing and pulling the dress off, throwing it deep into a closet. You don't look at the fridge. You go straight to bed.
The next morning the dress is on a hangar in the closet, smoothed out. It isn't prominent, just cared for.
I THOUGHT YOU LOOKED NICE
IM SORRY IT HURTS
The therapist appointment helps. You don't solve anything but it gives you a place to cry and be listened to.
You put the magnets up before bed.
The next morning they say IM SORRY I MADE YOU MAD
You lean against the kitchen counter and quietly say you weren't mad at them. Just at the world and at yourself.
because the world is scary and hard.
because you want things that are impossible.
the magnets don't move for a moment
NOT IMPOSSIBLE. JUST HARD.
You start to feel angry again. You breathe like your therapist reminded you about.
You change the subject. You ask where the ghost went.
YOU SEEMED TO WANT SPACE
you did. Or, you thought you did. But it ended up just making it hurt more.
I WORRIED IT MIGHT BUT DIDNT WANT TO FORCE IT
thanks, you say.
After a moment you ask WHERE they went
I CANT LEAVE THE HOUSE. I WENT TO THE ATTIC.
YOU DONT GO THERE. I DIDNT WANT TO SPY.
YOU KNOW WHAT MAKES ME SAD the fridge spells out once you've finished crying
What? you ask
I DONT KNOW WHO I AM
I DONT KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT MYSELF
that is sad, you agree
I FEEL THINGS SOMETIMES BUT IT ISNT THE SAME
the letters start rearranging faster as the ghost keeps needing letters that are already in use
I DONT WANT THINGS
I DONT HAVE A SENSE OF ME
I DONT KNOW WHAT IS LIKE ME OR NOT LIKE ME
I DONT HAVE A STYLE OR A PERSONALITY OR A STORY TO TELL ABOUT MYSELF
the letters stop
..not coherent? you ask quietly
you feel a ball of anxiety in your gut. Its been there for months. It feels like it is pulsing there, like a second heartbeat.
You know the feeling, you say quietly
ITS NOT A GOOD FEELING
not, it isn't
A long silence.
I HAVE TO BE THIS WAY
you don't respond. Tears are threatening again and you can't bring yourself to speak.
Another long silence. You wonder if the ghost has left.
@AzureHusky whenever you start learning another language, you buy magnets for the appropriate writing system so the ghost can give you daily vocab quizzes
@minty_da oh gosh!!! This is so good!!!
YOU NEED TO BUY SOME HUEVOS
"...is that.. bread?"
NO THAT IS PAN
YOU NEED EGGS
@AzureHusky oh no ;u;
@AzureHusky that'd make me wind up starting to crush pretty hard on the ghost...
@AzureHusky I need this.
@AzureHusky these always go into gender validation and I'm a huge fan
@UDNTNOME I wasn't even trying to its just inevitably what I end up writing if I write long enough
@AzureHusky I want a nice ghost like that
@AzureHusky To add to the mystery, who was the ghost before they passed on ?
@AzureHusky i might be crying a little bit but the good way
@VyrCossont 💙 crying can be a gift.
@AzureHusky aaaaand this one got me
@dconley sorry/not sorry
@AzureHusky oh my god blue this is brilliant
@minty_da I swear to god this is not what I intended when I started but here we are
@AzureHusky Wow, do I know that feeling.
I admit this is not at all what I intended when I started this thread. But also holy shit did it line up with the real feelings. I know that ghost feeling so well. It's.. Horrific. I'm so glad to be away from it.
@AzureHusky that one is a bit invasive actually :x
@Nocta the ghost wouldn't actually delete anything off their phone. Just the frustration of a friend watching someone hurt themself.
@AzureHusky I need this ghost in my life.
*goes and gets fridge magnets just because*
@AzureHusky this is wholesome
Oh my God this entire thread
@AzureHusky I would like this afterlife job please
@AzureHusky I love all of these so much. Thanks for writing them out
@AzureHusky let's be real though mine would just spell out FART and spend 5 hours laughing about it
@AzureHusky This is such a good and beautiful thread and you are wonderful for making it happen ♥️ ♥️ ♥️
@mawr aaaaa thanks
Sometimes it just happens
@AzureHusky I'd probably think it was one of my headmates tbh
@AzureHusky This was, strangely, the premise of a children's television programme that aired in 1992 that was very popular in Canada
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